https://www.nytimes.com/2018/01/24/opinion/panic-disorder-disability.html?action=click&pgtype=Homepage&clickSource=story-heading&module=opinion-c-col-right-region&region=opinion-c-col-right-region&WT.nav=opinion-c-col-right-region



One for the past....that is always present....

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YLDEFkhvHVw

"Waltz #2 (XO)"

by Elliott Smith

Lyrics

First the mic then a half cigarette
Singing Cathy's clown
That's the man that she's married to now
That's the girl that he takes around town
She appears composed, so she is, I suppose
Who can really tell?
She shows no emotion at all
Stares into space like a dead china doll
I'm never gonna know you now, but I'm gonna love you anyhow
Now she's done and they're calling someone
Such a familiar name
I'm so glad that my memories remote
'cos I'm doing just fine hour to hour, note to note
Here it is the revenge to the tune
"You're no good,
You're no good you're no good you're no good"
Can't you tell that it's well understood
I'm never gonna know you now, but I'm gonna love you anyhow
I'm here today and expected to stay on and on and on
I'm tired
I'm tired
Looking out on the substitute scene
Still going strong
Xo, mom
It's ok, it's alright, nothing's wrong
Tell mr. man with impossible plans to just leave me alone
In the place where I make no mistakes
In the place where I have what it takes
I'm never gonna know you now, but I'm gonna love you anyhow
I'm never gonna know you now, but I'm gonna love you anyhow
I'm never gonna know you now, but I'm gonna love you anyhow

Written by Steven P. Smith • Copyright © Universal Music Publishing Group

"These fragments I have shored against my ruin..." -- T. S. Eliot

Me too.  Black Rose and Irish music.  Durgin Park dinners.
Walking arm in arm across the common, 
Back to 57 Stuart Street hotel,
The rain deluge crossing the street,
Drenched love,
Times Square on New Years Eve,
New York Steak and Ale, was it?
On Long Wharf, or am I growing foggy?

Walking into your families home on Christmas afternoons,
"Shit or get off the pot."
"Don't call him Mino".
There are dozens of Greek churches in Maine.
And dozens and dozens of Greeks.
But no kids.  Ben to Seattle, Elise to North Carolina.
Haven't followed them across the country.

What was the problem?  How could it happen?
Who meddled?   What intervened, what mistakes?
Who wanted What?
Why did they make Teddy my boss?
They all knew who he was.  What can they want?
Flowers for two Mondays.  
Tickets to a concert.  "Never say never".
What carrots?  What's the point?

Tickets returned for Gus and Barb.
Are they still together?  What about the circular
Firing squad?
After all this time, how can these ruins
Still linger.  Still awaken.  Still congregate at
All times of the day and night.

These fragments won't dissolve,
There are many newer ones, and even older ones,
But those remain unanswered.
I heard somewhere, maybe Susan,
That it is Florida, now a home?
Where?  What?  Why?

That's the point -- Why?  Why not?
Why won't these fragments dissolve?
What is love?  What is peace?
The cardinals mate for life, Susan preaches.
Habits mate for life.  What of the ruins?
What clears the ruins?
How to rebuild what went wrong...

Who wanted to end things, never said goodbye.
Just walked away.
Then drove away.  Far away.
And stayed away.
Never to return.
Never to surrender.
"These fragments I have shored against my ruin" -- T. S. Eliot

What a waste.  There are Greek churches in Maine.
Never said goodbye.
Never whatever.  

                                                    "Olive Art", some best of 2017, age 3


A Reflection on Living Through Turbulent Times. from Maria Popova's Blog

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I will not let anyone walk through my mind with their dirty feet.

 -- Mahatma Ghandi

Link below to Ralph Waldo Emerson's poem "Terminus"...very appropriate. 

 https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/52349/terminus

For all the old men out there....

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WteupLn1P24

"My Old Man" by Rosanne Cash, 

The old man is laughing tonight
He's young beyond his fears
But then the smile drops from his eyes
And we all wind up in tears

The old man's crying tonight
'Cause it all happened so fast
He's frightened by the future
Embarrassed by the past

So let him be who he wants to be
'Cause he ain't ever gonna be young again
And let him see who he needs to see
'Cause he never had too many friends
And ask him how he remembers me
'Cause I want to know where I stand
How I love my old man

The old man's restless tonight
Just trying to kill his pain
He believes what he says he believes
But that don't make him a saint

The old man's lonesome tonight
And he just wants to go home
All those fools who stand in his way
Why can't they leave him alone

So let him be who he wants to be
'Cause he ain't ever gonna be young again
And let him see who he needs to see
'Cause he never had too many friends
And ask how he remembers me
'Cause I want to know where I stand
How I love my old man

Written by Rosanne Cash • Copyright © Universal Music Publishing Group

Click below to hear Old Crow Medicine Show sing "We're All in This Together"...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_TXNSipWUiE

  "We're All In This Together"

Well my friend, well I see your face so clearly 
Little bit tired, little bit worn through the years 
You sound nervous, you seem lonely
I hardly recognize your voice on the telephone

In between I remember
Just before we wound up broken down
Drive out to the edge of the highway
Follow that lonesome dead-end roadside sound

[Chorus:]
We're all in this thing together
Walkin' the line between faith and fear
This life don't last forever
When you cry I taste the salt in your tears

Well my friend, let's put this thing together
And walk the path that worn out feet have trod
If you wanted we can go home forever
Give up your jaded ways, spell your name to God

[Chorus]

All we are is a picture in a mirror
Fancy shoes to grace our feet
All that there is is a slow road to freedom
Heaven above and the devil beneath

[Chorus]

James Comey‏Verified account @Comey

“But justice roll down like waters and righteousness like an ever-flowing stream” Amos 5:24 https://www.instagram.com/p/BcKtEUUg4Qa/ 

9:01 AM - 1 Dec 2017

Click below to hear Mary Chapin sing her beautiful song....This lovely Black Friday....Peace.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=amCpAiW2UMM

                             Mary Chapin Carpenter Lyrics

                                          "Deep Deep Down Heart"

How do you know what you know
because you've seen it with your eyes?
How do you know where to go,
how to identify your guides?
How do you see what was next
In your palm or a show of cards?
How do you learn to detect
The outlines of a scar?

Now the sky holds the night,
As the trees hold the shade.
And the road holds the map
Of every journey I've made.
And the clouds hold the sigh
Of the wind and the rain
In my deep, deep down heart...
My deep, deep down heart.

Now these wheels go so fast
There is nothing here to hold;
I keep pushing back the past
So that the future can unfold.
I guess the best of my mistakes
Show me all that I don't know.
But this strange kind of ache
Never seems to let me go.

And the sky holds the night,
And the trees hold the shade,
And the stars hold the light
That's travelled all this way.
But who holds my hand
So I am not afraid
In my deep, deep down heart
My deep, deep down heart?

I thought I heard my name
Walking late tonight
From the porch after the rain
In this rowing down the light.
There was no one standing there
Beyond the lantern's cast,
But just voices in the air
But just questions that ask,

How the sky holds the night?
How the trees hold the shade?
How your sleep holds your dreams
Till they shake you awake?
And how love holds you up
And then to chooses to break
Your deep, deep down heart...
Your deep, deep down heart?

Wynonna Judd - Dream Chaser (live)...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r0Z76U9WnCc

Where is home?  Did Odysseus reach Ithaca?
Couldn't get that far?  Maybe home is here, after all.   

Maybe there is no more fork in the road.  This is the end of the journey.  I am home? 

Peace.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_zce5d18m1Y

Patty Loveless Lyrics

                                                      Love Builds The Wall

She's twistin' the ring on her finger
She's watchin' the clock on the wall
She's hopin' when it finally hits him
He's wrong
He'll come to his senses
And give her a call

Across town he's in a hotel room
He can't keep his eyes off the phone
He's thinking that soon she'll break down and call
To tell him she's sorry
And beg him back home

There's a lonesome fool waiting
On each end of the line
There's a measure of blame on both sides
Until each heart is willing
There's no hope at all
'Cause love builds the bridges
But pride builds the walls

The longer they wait on each other
The harder it gets to give in
They're too proud to see
They're just one call away
From putting their love back
Together again

There's a lonesome fool waiting
On each end of the line
There's a measure of blame on both sides
Until each heart is willing
There's no hope at all
'Cause love builds the bridges
But pride builds the walls

Until each heart is willing
There's no hope at all
'Cause love builds the bridges
But pride builds the walls

For Anita Bobbi, who chose another, after we kissed.

"Nothin' But The Wheel", sung by Patty Loveless...link below...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ob4T87XxS3Y

Lyrics

Way on past the boulevards
Out here underneath the stars
I've been flying past the houses, farms and fields
Leaving all I know back there
Rushing through the cold night air
And I'm holding on to nothin' but the wheel

Staying clear of the interstate
I'm seeking out those old two lanes
Trying to explain the way I feel
Till all at once it's half past three
And it's down, to just the trucks and me
And I'm holding on to nothin' but the wheel

I've been trying to drive you off my mind
Maybe that way baby I can leave it all behind
And forty-one goes on and on
And the lights go winding in the dawn
The sky's the color now of polished steel
And the only thing I know for sure
Is if you don't want me anymore
Then I'm holding on to nothin' but the wheel

And the only thing I know for sure
Is if you don't want me anymore
Then I'm holding on to nothin' but the wheel

I'm holding on to nothin' but the wheel

Written by John Scott Sherrill • Copyright © Universal Music Publishing Group

"You are responsible for that which you have tamed."
      -- The Little Prince.

Click this safe youtube link below to hear Lady Gaga sing her song, "Million Reasons".  The link is safe, if you are paranoid just highlight it, copy it and paste it to your address bar,  and hit enter.   Please read the lyrics on the video...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-B_iLyXzbvE




"NOT MY PRESIDENT!" - Oldbigfoot

Click below to hear Mary Chapin Carpenter sing her song "Something Tamed Something Wild"...I will try to exercise everyday Dr. Guay...That's all, too....

http://www.marychapincarpenter.com/2016/03/watch-lyric-video-for-something-tamed-something-wild/

"Donald Trump should be impeached"  
-- Oldbigfoot

https://www.nytimes.com/2017/08/13/us/charlottesville-protests-unite-the-right.html?hp&action=click&pgtype=Homepage&clickSource=story-heading&module=b-lede-package-region&region=top-news&WT.nav=top-news&_r=0

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https://www.jfklibrary.org/Research/Research-Aids/Ready-Reference/JFK-Fast-Facts/Dante.aspx

One of  President Kennedy's favorite quotations was based upon an interpretation of Dante's Inferno. As Robert Kennedy explained in 1964, "President Kennedy's favorite quote was really from Dante, 'The hottest places in Hell are reserved for those who in time of moral crisis preserve their neutrality.'" This supposed quotation is not actually in Dante's work, but is based upon a similar one. In the Inferno, Dante and his guide Virgil, on their way to Hell, pass by a group of dead souls outside the entrance to Hell. These individuals, when alive, remained neutral at a time of great moral decision. Virgil explains to Dante that these souls cannot enter either Heaven or Hell because they did not choose one side or another. They are therefore worse than the greatest sinners in Hell because they are repugnant to both God and Satan alike, and have been left to mourn their fate as insignificant beings neither hailed nor cursed in life or death, endlessly travailing below Heaven but outside of Hell. This scene occurs in the third canto of the Inferno (the following is a translation from the original written in the Italian vernacular):

Here sighs and lamentations and loud cries
were echoing across the starless air,
so that, as soon as I [Dante] set out, I wept.

Strange utterances, horrible pronouncements,
accents of anger, words of suffering,
and voice shrill and faints, and beating hands –

All went to make a tumult that will whirl
forever through that turbid, timeless air,
like sand that eddies when a whirlwind swirls.

And I - my head oppressed by horror - said:
"Master [Virgil], what is it that I hear? Who are
those people so defeated by their pain?"

And he to me: "This miserable way
is taken by the sorry souls of those
who lived without disgrace and without praise.

They now commingle with the coward angels,
the company of those who were not rebels
nor faithful to their God, but stood apart.

The heavens, that their beauty not be lessened,
have cast them out, nor will deep Hell receive them -
even the wicked cannot glory in them."

And I: "What is it, master, that oppresses
these souls, compelling them to wail so loud?"

He answered: "I shall tell you in few words.

Those who are here can place no hope in death,
and their blind life is so abject that they
are envious of every other fate.

The world will let no fame of theirs endure;
both justice and compassion must disdain them;
let us not talk of them, but look and pass."

And I, looking more closely, saw a banner
that, as it wheeled about, raced on - so quick
that any respite seemed unsuited to it.

Behind that banner trailed so long a file
of people - I should never have believed
that death could have unmade so many souls.

After I had identified a few,
I saw and recognized the shade of him
who made, through cowardice, the great refusal.

At once I understood with certainty:
this company constrained the cowardly,
hateful to God and to His enemies.

These wretched ones, who never were alive,
went naked and were stung again, again
by horseflies and by wasps that circled them.

The insects streaked their faces with their blood,
which, mingled with their tears, fell at their feet,
where it was gathered up by sickening worms.

For my wife, Doris...

First, listen to sing this song...click below:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9_rtKD8aEsY

Lyrics, "Love Chooses You", by Kathy Mattea

Love comes unbidden, can't be forbidden
It takes you and shakes you right down to your shoes
It knows heartache and trial but accepts no denial
You can't choose who you love, love chooses you 

In the wink of an eye love looses an arrow
We control it no more than the flight of the sparrow
The swell of the tide or the light of the moon
You can't choose who you love, love chooses you 

Tell me now if I'm wrong
Are you feelin' the same
Are your feet on the ground
Are you callin' my name
Do you lie awake nights
Please say you do
'Cause you can't choose who you love
Love chooses you 

Love cuts like a torch to a heart behind steel
And though you may hide it, love knows how you feel
And though you may trespass on the laws of the land
Your heart has to follow when love takes your hand 

And it seems we're two people within the same circle
It's drawn tighter and tighter till you're all that I see
I'm full and I'm empty and you're pouring through me
Like a warm rain fallin' through the leaves on a tree 

Tell me now if I'm wrong
Are you feelin' the same
Are your feet on the ground
Are you callin' my name
Do you lie awake nights
Please say you do
'Cause you can't choose who you love
Love chooses you 

No you can't choose who you love
Love chooses you 

Written by Laurie A. Lewis • Copyright © Universal Music Publishing Group

Then, listen to Mary Chapin Carpenter w/ Vince Gill & Kathy Mattea sing this song...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pdc_sGSco40

"Wall 'Round Your Heart", by Mary Chapin Carpenter

Just outside the place
Two people face
Each other merely by chance

Abandoned by words
And the purpose they serve
It stops them right in their tracks

How long has it been
Since this feeling within
Has made you forget who you are?

Let's you believe once more in the moon
Let's you have faith again in the stars
Let's you go free 'cause someone broke through
The wall around your heart

Now the world is unkind most of the time
And most of the time we survive
Hard look at yourselves and love double crosses
That all broken hearts seem to find

After giving too much
They're afraid of the touch
'Cause the last just left a scar

If you believe once more in the moon
And if you have faith again in the stars
You can go free 'cause someone broke through
The wall around your heart

There's walls made of steel
There was walls made of stone
But none are so strong
As the walls made of fear alone

Sooner or later, it's all human nature
Propelling you forward again
It's the step and the chance, the turn and a glance
Asking, where in the world have you been?

But you don't have to answer
'Cause now you're a dancer
And the music is ready to start

You can believe once more in the moon
You have faith again in the stars
And you can go free 'cause someone broke through
The wall around your heart

You can go free 'cause someone broke through
The wall around your heart

Written by Mary Chapin Carpenter

"When I see a slippery slope, my instinct is to build a terrace."  -- John McCarthy

Read more at: https://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/keywords/slippery_slope.html

Click below to hear Kathy sing this song...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IBKat9wZP3c

Lyrics, "A Few Good Things Remain" by Kathy Mattea

heard a siren late last night,
You must have felt me shiver,
Shaken by a wave of fright,
That you calm with a whisper.
And fear gave way to better things,
Like a warm summer and sweeter dreams. 

Like a warm spring rain, on a roof above;
The way you call my name, when we make love.
While the world outside my window goes insane,
You're here to remind me, a few good things remain. 

When living leaves my pride bruised up,
I'm fragile as a feather.
The storms of life just won't let up,
You're like a change of weather.
When dust settles on my dreams,
You wash them clean. 

Like a warm spring rain, on a roof above;
The way you call my name, when we make love.
While the world outside my window goes insane,
You're here to remind me, a few good things remain. 

While the world outside my window goes insane,
You're here to remind me, a few good things remain. 

You're here to remind me, a few good things remain. 

Written by Jonathan Blair Vezner, Patrick Alger • Copyright © Universal Music Publishing Group

Click below to hear Jo Dee Messina sing this song...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zFingq4DEXg

Lyrics, "Was That My Life", Jo Dee Messina

I don't want to be the one who's old before their time,
And lose the wonder that I felt as a child.
I can't run this race believing I might lose;
There's still so much to see, and so much left to do.
Yes, I'll fall before I fly,
But no one can say I never tried.

Oh, we just get one ride around the sun,
In this dream of time.
It goes so fast that one day we look back,
And we ask, was that my life?

I close my eyes and think how lucky I have been,
To hold the ones I love and share my dreams with them.
All those sunny days and all those starry skies
Good morning kisses and sweet good nights.
Oh, I can't tell them enough,
Just how much that they are loved.

We just get one ride around the sun,
In this dream of time.
It goes so fast that one day we look back,
And we ask, oh, was that my life?
Oh, was that my life rollin' on by?
Oh, rollin', rollin', rollin', rollin' on by.
Was that my life?
Oh, was that my life?

Written by Marv Green, Bill Luther • Copyright © Warner/Chappell Music, Inc, Universal Music Publishing Group

"Come From the Heart" sung by Kathy Mattea:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IMaQ1EjmGkk

My daddy told me when I was a young girl
A lesson he learned, it was a long time ago
If you want to have someone to hold onto
You're gonna have to learn to let go

You got to sing like you don't need the money
Love like you'll never get hurt
You got to dance like nobody's watchin'
It's gotta come from the heart
If you want it to work

Now here is the one thing I keep forgettin'
When everything is falling apart
In life as in love, you know I need to remember
There's such a thing as trying too hard

You got to sing like you don't need the money
Love like you'll never get hurt
You got to dance like nobody's watchin'
It's gotta come from the heart
If you want it to work

Songwriters
Clark, Susanna Wallis / Leigh, Richard C

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Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

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"I tell you the past is a bucket of ashes, so live not in your yesterdays, no just for tomorrow, but in the here and now. Keep moving and forget the post mortems; and remember, no one can get the jump on the future."  
-- Carl Sandburg 

Click below to hear Garth sing "The Dance"...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bpwdwbO1uvM

Lyrics, "The Dance" by Garth Brooks

Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared beneath the stars above
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known you'd ever say goodbye
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd have to miss the dance
Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn't I the king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey who's to say you know I might have changed it all
And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance
Yes my life is better left to chance
I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance

Written by Tony Arata • Copyright © Warner/Chappell Music, Inc, BMG Rights Management US, LLC

CLICK TO ENLARGE AND READ...-Oldbigfoot

For my beautiful daughter Elise, Happy Birthday and best wishes for a great day, take care, Love, Dad

"love you all the bunches in the world"

Click below to hear them sing their song "Wagon Wheel"....

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1gX1EP6mG-E

Old Crow Medicine Show Lyrics

                                                          "Wagon Wheel"

Headed down south to the land of the pines
I'm thumbin' my way into North Caroline
Starin' up the road
And pray to God I see headlights
I made it down the coast in seventeen hours
Pickin' me a bouquet of dogwood flowers
And I'm a hopin' for Raleigh
I can see my baby tonight

[Chorus:]
So rock me mama like a wagon wheel
Rock me mama anyway you feel
Hey mama rock me
Rock me mama like the wind and the rain
Rock me mama like a south-bound train
Hey mama rock me

Runnin' from the cold up in New England
I was born to be a fiddler in an old-time string band
My baby plays the guitar
I pick a banjo now
Oh, the North country winters keep a gettin' me now
Lost my money playin' poker so I had to up and leave
But I ain't a turnin' back
To livin' that old life no more

[Chorus]

Walkin' due south out of Roanoke
I caught a trucker out of Philly
Had a nice long toke
But he's a headed west from the Cumberland Gap
To Johnson City, Tennessee
And I gotta get a move on before the sun
I hear my baby callin' my name
And I know that she's the only one
And if I die in Raleigh
At least I will die free

[Chorus]

Writer(s): Ketch Secor, Bob Dylan 

For Cousin Julie, "Happy Birthday" -- Play on....

Click below or copy and paste to address bar this link to hear Carrie Underwood sing "Temporary Home".

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LraOiHUltak

Lyrics, "Temporary Home", by Carrie Underwood

Little boy, six years old
A little too used to bein' alone
Another new mom and dad, another school
Another house that'll never be home
When people ask him how he likes this place
He looks up and says with a smile upon his face

"This is my temporary home
It's not where I belong
Windows in rooms that I'm passin' through
This is just a stop, on the way to where I'm going
I'm not afraid because I know this is my
Temporary home."

Young mom on her own
She needs a little help got nowhere to go
She's lookin' for a job, lookin' for a way out
'Cause a half-way house will never be a home
At night she whispers to her baby girl
Someday we'll find a place here in this world

"This is our temporary home
It's not where we belong
Windows in rooms that we're passin' through
This is just a stop, on the way to where we're going
I'm not afraid because I know this is our
Temporary Home."

Old man, hospital bed
The room is filled with people he loves
And he whispers don't cry for me
I'll see you all someday
He looks up and says "I can see God's face"

"This is my temporary Home
It's not where I belong
Windows in rooms that I'm passin' through
This was just a stop, on the way to where I'm going
I'm not afraid because I know this was
My temporary home."

This is our temporary home

Written by Zac Maloy, Luke Laird, Carrie Underwood • Copyright © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Universal Music Publishing Group